I Am Just Bummed…
By michelle | April 16, 2010
In the past several of months, there has been so much sadness in my life and the lives of those around me. I am having a very hard time this evening with it all.
In a short period of time, our family has been constantly sick, my mom is dealing with her cancer and constant testing, my friend, who had been trying to conceive for nearly two years, miscarried her baby, my Nonna struggles in a nursing home, my other friends found out that their future plans are being delayed indefinitely, another friend delivered a stillborn full-term baby girl, my husband’s Aunt Joy passed away after a short battle with brain cancer, several people that we love have been trying for years and cannot conceive, my in-laws are going through a hard time at their church, a friend’s step-mother was diagnosed with cancer, and the wedding of our friends that was supposed to be this weekend had to be cancelled due to immigration issues and the groom is now detained, separated from his fiance AND his young daughter, on the weekend that was to be his wedding.
On top of this, now that our family has been exposed to a “highly contagious” virus, we have to cancel our trip back home. My mom’s side of the family, all four of her brothers and their families, were getting together. One of my aunts has brain cancer and I have an uncle who is very ill. I so wanted to be there because this may be the last time that everyone is together as a family, and now we can’t go. We can’t expose these two family members, who are in compromised physical states, to this stupid virus.
I am angry. I am sad. I am disappointed. I am confused. I am frustrated.
I just wish things weren’t like this.
21 Comments
Andrew on April 16, 2010 at 6:50 pm.
I will pray for you and your family. Christ is Risen!
Mat. Emily on April 16, 2010 at 7:06 pm.
I am so sorry, Michelle. I know that things have been so rough for you this last year and I truly hope that it will get better soon. I will be praying for you.
Elizabeth on April 16, 2010 at 7:43 pm.
Yeah. Life can really put one through the wringer… I find this Akathist to Jesus light in darkness can help – http://www.archdiocese.ca/e_resources/articles/Lawrence.Akathist_To_Jesus.pdf
My love and small prayers and a very big hug!
DebD on April 16, 2010 at 8:58 pm.
All those things put together are just overwhelming. I’m sorry it’s been so rough with you. I would be so disappointed too. Hugs and prayers.
Martha on April 16, 2010 at 9:02 pm.
We have been through our share of difficulties this past year, too. I saw a car accident yesterday, while driving home from work…the man reminded me of my dad. I wish you could be with your family. You have so many blessings though. I try to focus on the positive things… I will pray for you. Oh, and I have been going through all my photos and stuff and have some to mail you…from our visit with you last YEAR!!! In the mail!!!
Michelle Mowat on April 16, 2010 at 9:16 pm.
I am so sorry. That is hard. I have several hard things that I have been dealing with, but it seems so small with all the you are going through. Praying that God gives you PEACE during this very difficult and discouraging time.
Magda on April 16, 2010 at 9:18 pm.
I hurt with you. There are years in which it seems like everything happens all at once.
I will pray for you and your family and friends especially this weekend. Sometimes reading the psalms helps.
May the peace of the risen Christ be with you.
leah on April 16, 2010 at 10:03 pm.
That’s a lot to cope with. I am so, so sorry. I will praying for you and your loved ones during this difficult time in your lives.
Lora on April 16, 2010 at 10:58 pm.
Michelle,
I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with so much. It definitely takes a toll on you emotionally. I’m praying for you!
mary@evlogia on April 16, 2010 at 11:02 pm.
I’m so sorry to hear that your struggling right now. God keep you. You’re in my prayers.
Elizabeth @ The Garden Window on April 17, 2010 at 2:52 am.
Oh Michelle,
You do not need any extra stress right now, after a truly difficult year!
I am so sorry your trip has had to be cancelled, and I pray that the young ones will escape infection.
I will start praying one Stasis of the Psalter each day specifically for the needs of your family and friends ……
Anastasia Theodoridis on April 17, 2010 at 11:07 am.
My prayers, added to the rest, for your family and friends and all their needs and heartaches.
When your own strength fails you, Christ will lend you some of His own.
Pres. kathy on April 17, 2010 at 11:16 am.
I am so sorry that things are so difficulr right now. Just keep praying and try to stay positive. We will pray here too. Just think – things can only get better!
Trish on April 18, 2010 at 4:46 pm.
I miss you
Annie Luidhardt on April 19, 2010 at 8:06 am.
Life is so hard sometimes and it always seems to come in waves!! Just keep relying on the one who gives you strength!!!!! Jesus!! I’ll be praying friend!!
renee on April 19, 2010 at 8:14 am.
In times like these I try to remember that there is great Beauty even in great suffering. I try to remember God’s Providence. It is times like these that we are forced into the arms of our Lord to be comforted and guided. We are reminded that we live in a fallen world in which Christ lifts us up. And “this too shall pass.” Our love is with you, your family and friends.
Mimi on April 19, 2010 at 4:06 pm.
Oh hon, that is a hard, long list of trials. I have no words of wisdom, just huge, big hugs and prayers.
grandma on April 19, 2010 at 7:59 pm.
Sending lots of hugs and prayers…one minute at a time…love
lauren s. on April 20, 2010 at 8:23 pm.
Sorry so late on this – Hugs and prayers…but…Happy birthday today! Your kids are so beautiful! Hope you had a nice dinner.
MelissaD on April 21, 2010 at 7:08 am.
If I have learned anything these past two weeks it’s that God is sovereign and in total control, His plans are not our plans (His are better), and His grace is sufficient to see you through any and all hardships. Love you much. Praying for you guys.
Sarah in Indiana on April 21, 2010 at 11:07 pm.
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with all these things right now. Cancer is so scarily pervasive. It’s really hard not to be with the people we love. But…Christ is Risen!